Reflecting on my physical and emotional fitness.

Of course as I promise you guys that I will be blogging more #lifehappens! I honestly feel like it has been such an uphill struggle this past week, I have to sit and take a few minutes to reflect and reevaluate and just vent! If you're not into venting, then you might want to find some more blogs to follow :X I'll start by saying that job hunting... is HARD! It has almost been a month and all the momentum I had going is now screeching to a halt, which is draining. I feel useless, worthless and seeing the same postings and filling out the same information is so repetitive just to hang on the thread of MAYBE I'll get an interview. I know that the whole process takes a while and it is like this, especially in this economy, the majority of the time. I think it was just so exciting at first because I was on a roll. In one week I had 4 interviews and a shadow, and I thought that maybe I was going somewhere. I know I will get a job eventually, but I just have to keep my standard...

Yesterday was a huge day.  It was a release in one of the best, and most painful forms possible, and so needed. Since my father's death I've always been itching to get a memorial tattoo for him, but nothing ever felt right, until I was looking through some quotes, and then something finally clicked into a design. This quote has always stuck with me and just feels right for this time in my life. Transitioning into the working world (and yes I'm aware of the **risks** of getting a tattoo and what not and the likelihood of employment.. blah, blah, blah... spare me), and finding my fitness, finding my footing for my BPP and even this blog, being a mother, and a wife, and always trying to see the good in things. Along with continuing through life with this new found bravery, and knowing that if I set my mind to something it CAN be done. My goals in life can be achieved, because I am strong, I am brave, and I am determined! Those are three things I would hope that my father...

I swear, when I started blogging the plan was to devote much more time to this! But, I'm going to say, LIFE happens. Between family time, job searching, interviews, working out, spending time with our Love bug, and all the birthday celebrations and festivities we've had, it's thrown me for a loop! I've also actually had a few minutes every now and then to decompress and really reflect on life's transitions, which is weird considering how chaotic it has been around here. One major breakthrough is that I actually accomplished a goal I had set to do last year, which was wear a crop top out in public. I wore the H out of that AC/DC crop top to the Miranda concert. Of course there were stares, and yeah they got to me, made me feel uncomfortable, and like I REALLY wanted to change... but I didn't! I danced, and sang along, and had the absolute best time. Brady and I were able to leisurely stroll into the pits, get a good spot right next to the stage, and catch TWO g...

I have to say, I can't believe that these last two weeks since my last post have FLOWN by! But I also will say that it is the beginning of my absolute favorite month. The weather gets cooler, kids go back to school, the leaves begin to change, fair season picks up, harvest produce is in abundance, PUMPKIN EVERYTHING is out and it is the beginning of hunting season preparation. I just love September, not to mention it's my birthday month! It truly is the beginning of one of the greatest wonders in nature. I can't get enough of the sights, smells, and tastes of this month. This month also marks a new beginning for me as well, no only am I a week into Insanity, I am looking to track my IIFYM results, thus far! I have reactivated my Scentsy business, and I am also **gasp** getting back on the work grind (that was my biggest feat over the past two weeks). As much as I want to admit that I'm ready, really I am not. I feel so socially awkward in many situations, but I need ...