September, a time for transitions!!
I have to say, I can't believe that these last two weeks since my last post have FLOWN by! But I also will say that it is the beginning of my absolute favorite month. The weather gets cooler, kids go back to school, the leaves begin to change, fair season picks up, harvest produce is in abundance, PUMPKIN EVERYTHING is out and it is the beginning of hunting season preparation. I just love September, not to mention it's my birthday month! It truly is the beginning of one of the greatest wonders in nature. I can't get enough of the sights, smells, and tastes of this month.
This month also marks a new beginning for me as well, no only am I a week into Insanity, I am looking to track my IIFYM results, thus far! I have reactivated my Scentsy business, and I am also **gasp** getting back on the work grind (that was my biggest feat over the past two weeks). As much as I want to admit that I'm ready, really I am not. I feel so socially awkward in many situations, but I need to do it. For the sake of the household's and mommy's sanity, I need to feel complete again. Not that I am not a functional member of society because I'm a pretty darn good homemaker, and my house would probably fail to function without me, but to financially contribute to paying off our debt would be an awesome accomplishment. I've sent my resume and apps to a number of places and I almost died when I got my first call back for an interview! I was immediately nervous upon hanging up the phone with HR. I started to sweat, shake, get that queasy feeling in my stomach, the whole 9 yards! Not only was it for a job a little outside my comfort zone, but I hadn't actually been in a professional environment in over a year, and to make matters worse, I had nothing to wear. I donated all of my "professional" clothes when I lost weight. This lead to the "shopportunity," which I was somewhat confident about, but shirt after skirt, after dress pant, I got more and more discouraged. Nothing fit right or looked right together. I honestly had a breakdown in the dressing room in Kohl's, I felt so defeated. How was I going to get a job if I couldn't even get an outfit together. I was running out of time and energy. Finally, I remembered my main purpose in life, to be positive! I picked myself up and put my big girl panties on, marched into another store and MADE something work! No, it wasn't my ideal Pinterest pick, but it worked! I confided in my fashion consultant husband the night before and he looked at me as serious as could be and told me I looked amazing. That was the kicker. He'll usually tell me little things like that, but never in all seriousness! It was then I decided to not just act confident, but BE confident... in myself, my capabilities, my strengths, my weaknesses, and my purpose. I carried that over into the next morning when I completed my Insanity, showered and got ready for my interview and all the nervousness melted away once I was in there.
When I walked out of a seemingly great interview I realized that no matter if I end up getting the job or not, I conquered one of my greatest fears, and like most cases, it wasn't all that bad. This is a time of transition, not permanence. Things will be new and exciting, or new and scary... but regardless of what they are, they are still opportunities to make something better, even if it's by hearing "no." This new opportunity in the work force is definitely scary for myself, and for my daughter because it means she'll be making a transition into daycare as well, but the more positive I am, the more positive she may feel as well. I have to keep reminding myself that body positivity ripples into so many other areas of my life, and as a mother, I must set that example for her. Situations change in life, as do the seasons and no matter what we should welcome those changes and work to make them better. Not everyone likes Fall because Winter is close behind it, but if you worry too much about that then you'll miss the beauty of the season's change <3!
This month also marks a new beginning for me as well, no only am I a week into Insanity, I am looking to track my IIFYM results, thus far! I have reactivated my Scentsy business, and I am also **gasp** getting back on the work grind (that was my biggest feat over the past two weeks). As much as I want to admit that I'm ready, really I am not. I feel so socially awkward in many situations, but I need to do it. For the sake of the household's and mommy's sanity, I need to feel complete again. Not that I am not a functional member of society because I'm a pretty darn good homemaker, and my house would probably fail to function without me, but to financially contribute to paying off our debt would be an awesome accomplishment. I've sent my resume and apps to a number of places and I almost died when I got my first call back for an interview! I was immediately nervous upon hanging up the phone with HR. I started to sweat, shake, get that queasy feeling in my stomach, the whole 9 yards! Not only was it for a job a little outside my comfort zone, but I hadn't actually been in a professional environment in over a year, and to make matters worse, I had nothing to wear. I donated all of my "professional" clothes when I lost weight. This lead to the "shopportunity," which I was somewhat confident about, but shirt after skirt, after dress pant, I got more and more discouraged. Nothing fit right or looked right together. I honestly had a breakdown in the dressing room in Kohl's, I felt so defeated. How was I going to get a job if I couldn't even get an outfit together. I was running out of time and energy. Finally, I remembered my main purpose in life, to be positive! I picked myself up and put my big girl panties on, marched into another store and MADE something work! No, it wasn't my ideal Pinterest pick, but it worked! I confided in my fashion consultant husband the night before and he looked at me as serious as could be and told me I looked amazing. That was the kicker. He'll usually tell me little things like that, but never in all seriousness! It was then I decided to not just act confident, but BE confident... in myself, my capabilities, my strengths, my weaknesses, and my purpose. I carried that over into the next morning when I completed my Insanity, showered and got ready for my interview and all the nervousness melted away once I was in there.
When I walked out of a seemingly great interview I realized that no matter if I end up getting the job or not, I conquered one of my greatest fears, and like most cases, it wasn't all that bad. This is a time of transition, not permanence. Things will be new and exciting, or new and scary... but regardless of what they are, they are still opportunities to make something better, even if it's by hearing "no." This new opportunity in the work force is definitely scary for myself, and for my daughter because it means she'll be making a transition into daycare as well, but the more positive I am, the more positive she may feel as well. I have to keep reminding myself that body positivity ripples into so many other areas of my life, and as a mother, I must set that example for her. Situations change in life, as do the seasons and no matter what we should welcome those changes and work to make them better. Not everyone likes Fall because Winter is close behind it, but if you worry too much about that then you'll miss the beauty of the season's change <3!
I'm so happy for you and agree, September is my FAV month! ♡
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