Time keeps on slipping..
I swear, when I started blogging the plan was to devote much more time to this! But, I'm going to say, LIFE happens. Between family time, job searching, interviews, working out, spending time with our Love bug, and all the birthday celebrations and festivities we've had, it's thrown me for a loop! I've also actually had a few minutes every now and then to decompress and really reflect on life's transitions, which is weird considering how chaotic it has been around here.
One major breakthrough is that I actually accomplished a goal I had set to do last year, which was wear a crop top out in public. I wore the H out of that AC/DC crop top to the Miranda concert. Of course there were stares, and yeah they got to me, made me feel uncomfortable, and like I REALLY wanted to change... but I didn't! I danced, and sang along, and had the absolute best time. Brady and I were able to leisurely stroll into the pits, get a good spot right next to the stage, and catch TWO guitars picks (on of with belonged to Miranda herself **swoooooon**). And I got to have skin to skin contact with Justin Moore and Thomas Rhett for approximately nine tenths of a second! In the end it really didn't matter what I was wearing, I was there to enjoy my idol, and if there is anyone that I admire most and who's attitude on body image and body positivity is one to take notes on, it is Miranda Lambert's!
My birthday rolled around about 5 days later, and since then for some reason I've been on a weird up and down spiral of emotions. I've been proud of my body, and I've been annoyed by it. I always set myself up for this though when I go through these programs. I had higher hopes for Insanity, and trust me it IS a total body workout for sure, but I'm just too hard on my own body. I'm finally feeling like I can balance Insanity and a run on most days. I've also come up with a game plan for when I finish Insanity, which is only 5 weeks away. I'm going to do 21 Day Fix to finish out November and then add weights to get me through the holidays. I miss my weights, but often get too distracted by all of my calendar workouts that I need time to really create a calendar that incorporates both to the extent in which I would like to see results. I've also come to terms with the fact that when I go back to work, I'll have to really manage my time wisely so I don't lose focus.
Job searching has really had an effect on me mentally as well, which I feel ripples into my self-esteem. I've had a total of 4 interviews and one job shadow so far, and had to turn down a position already. The lull is definitely making me feel like I'm never going to find anything, but I still have prospects that are hopeful, so I need to concentrate on that. There ARE opportunities for me out there, I just need to have patience and not think that the lull means that I won't ever find anything. I had a near break down when I went shopping for clothes when this whole venture started, and it is safe to say that I am a little better about that now. I've gotten a few outfits together for interviews and will be able to use them for a career at some point (reminding myself to stay positive!). After all, I need to do this for my family, and most importantly, myself. No matter what I try to convince myself of. I am a strong, determined, focused woman who doesn't necessarily need to be compensated for my work (I'm used to being paid in boogers and giggles) but would like to feel that sense of being a functional member of society. Also getting completely out of debt by February is the household goal, so a job will definitely help with that :D
Regardless, these are my ramblings but luckily I have a few more ideas for more posts coming soon and some pretty exciting events that I will let you all in on in the very near future!
Xo,
Gina
One major breakthrough is that I actually accomplished a goal I had set to do last year, which was wear a crop top out in public. I wore the H out of that AC/DC crop top to the Miranda concert. Of course there were stares, and yeah they got to me, made me feel uncomfortable, and like I REALLY wanted to change... but I didn't! I danced, and sang along, and had the absolute best time. Brady and I were able to leisurely stroll into the pits, get a good spot right next to the stage, and catch TWO guitars picks (on of with belonged to Miranda herself **swoooooon**). And I got to have skin to skin contact with Justin Moore and Thomas Rhett for approximately nine tenths of a second! In the end it really didn't matter what I was wearing, I was there to enjoy my idol, and if there is anyone that I admire most and who's attitude on body image and body positivity is one to take notes on, it is Miranda Lambert's!
My birthday rolled around about 5 days later, and since then for some reason I've been on a weird up and down spiral of emotions. I've been proud of my body, and I've been annoyed by it. I always set myself up for this though when I go through these programs. I had higher hopes for Insanity, and trust me it IS a total body workout for sure, but I'm just too hard on my own body. I'm finally feeling like I can balance Insanity and a run on most days. I've also come up with a game plan for when I finish Insanity, which is only 5 weeks away. I'm going to do 21 Day Fix to finish out November and then add weights to get me through the holidays. I miss my weights, but often get too distracted by all of my calendar workouts that I need time to really create a calendar that incorporates both to the extent in which I would like to see results. I've also come to terms with the fact that when I go back to work, I'll have to really manage my time wisely so I don't lose focus.
Job searching has really had an effect on me mentally as well, which I feel ripples into my self-esteem. I've had a total of 4 interviews and one job shadow so far, and had to turn down a position already. The lull is definitely making me feel like I'm never going to find anything, but I still have prospects that are hopeful, so I need to concentrate on that. There ARE opportunities for me out there, I just need to have patience and not think that the lull means that I won't ever find anything. I had a near break down when I went shopping for clothes when this whole venture started, and it is safe to say that I am a little better about that now. I've gotten a few outfits together for interviews and will be able to use them for a career at some point (reminding myself to stay positive!). After all, I need to do this for my family, and most importantly, myself. No matter what I try to convince myself of. I am a strong, determined, focused woman who doesn't necessarily need to be compensated for my work (I'm used to being paid in boogers and giggles) but would like to feel that sense of being a functional member of society. Also getting completely out of debt by February is the household goal, so a job will definitely help with that :D
Regardless, these are my ramblings but luckily I have a few more ideas for more posts coming soon and some pretty exciting events that I will let you all in on in the very near future!
Xo,
Gina
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